First up, I now have a perminant day job! One of the big stressers for me was freelancing- which involves a lot of late nights, hopping from studio to studio and chasing down clients and payments. Very hard to focus on 'Dread with that going on.
Well, now I have a nice 9 to 5 job, so that means stability and free nights for Skully. It is a cracking job too. I am now the character and creature artist for Lord of The Rings Online!
|My new home!|
Sady, that means giving up my sweet office space at the AIE- I cannot have students looking over my shoulder, so it is back to the home studio with me. Darn it, I was enjoying the commute.
In case you didn't know I have been a professional game artist for sixteen years now. In fact, here is what I was up to a decade ago...
|Skaarj by Delaney King|
Okay, so with added stability comes chaos. My son is due to be born in six weeks, so I am setting a soft deadline to get the beta out before he arrives. I hear sleep will be in short supply afterwards!
|The one to thank for my deadline|
Thanks again for everyone's patience whilst I recover from my depression. I am trying to be open and honest about it as possible, to help destigmatize it and let people realize it is just a illness like any other. It can be recovered from, it can be treated, and it can kill.
Regarding that other part of my life that needs to be talked about*, well a recent study revealed that the ratio of intersex people (born somewhere between what is medically agreed male and female) could be as high as 1 in 100 live births. Hearing that made me feel much less a rare creature. It is kinda lonely being the acception to a rule, especially when everyone is annoyingly ignorant that we even exist, and utterly horrible when people attack you for how you where born.
*(In case you came late to the party, I was born intersex but had a female gender identity- so though I was assigned male by doctors, I discovered this later and transitioned to female using hormone replacement to rewrite my body on a cellular level to use my female dna- exactly the same as transgender women do... only I had a headstart on them being partially female bodied to begin with. Yeah, it's weird, yeah, it sucks, but hey, other than that I am just a regular gal. I do identify as transgender, because my narrative and treatment is identical, but technically I fall into the intersex category).
I am loving life right now. Switching to living as a female has so utterly transformed my life I cannot really connect who I was before with who I am now. I kinda feel like Dax from ST:DS9- (someone explained the character to me- I never watched the show). Like her, I have all of the old me's memories and skills, but transfered into a totally new personality and body.
And watching my body slowly replace it's cells with female ones using my own female DNA is definately like something out of science fiction. These days, people just see me as a woman. I don't get harassed, I don't get stares. Hell, some guy asked if I could sit and chat with his daughter at a games convention because he worried she had no female interactions all day (we talked about her new unicorn, called 'uni'. She ate invisible magic popcorn, of course.) I even had a former employee chat with me for a few minutes before I had to explain I already knew him, and who I was. I simply am not that person any more. Most importantly I am happy. It is absolutely the best thing I have ever done for my health.
So new me, new body, new face, new hair, new job and new baby on the way!
Hopefully a sign of good things to come,
Okay, gotta get back to it.